Friday, February 3, 2012

My little brain likes bacon.

Lately I have been considering becoming a vegetarian...yes i know how good bacon is.

But I look at our world and I see a distinct lack of empathy among us humans. We categorize into hierarchies and justify behaviour, oppression and atrocities based on the position of one entity relative to another.  It is in our genes. Alpha male gets the lions share. It's only natural, like eating meat. 
But we are not natural. We have broken the bonds of the natural. We have become death.
We can do so much more than we should be able to.
We are still waging a war between our little brain, the old mind that lies at the center of our grey matter, snarling and baring its teeth at unknown threats in the shadows of the future.
We need to tame ourselves...and we can.
It needs to be fundamental.
So we need to learn empathy for that which is not us. Our xenophobia is our little brain acting up again and i have devised a cold turkey approach to thinking. How about equating others as important as oneself? sounds pretty crazy right? We are taught that we can buy what we need to let people know that we are worth more than they are. why? it's messed up.
why do we need to feel that way? it justifies so much horrible, horrible behaviour. in our past and present we devalue humans to the point where their slavery and death is irrelevant to us. . 

Could not eating meat because it reveals a lack of empathy for the other help us grow a new layer of grey matter around that wicked little brain?
i don't know. no reason to think that it would i suppose but if we are working so hard to not be natural let's go big...
T.S.Eliot big.
 damn straight.
expect more from yourself.

Preceding rant evoked by the following letter:  

Dayton, Ohio,

August 7, 1865

To My Old Master, Colonel P.H. Anderson, Big Spring, Tennessee

Sir: I got your letter, and was glad to find that you had not forgotten Jourdon, and that you wanted me to come back and live with you again, promising to do better for me than anybody else can. I have often felt uneasy about you. I thought the Yankees would have hung you long before this, for harboring Rebs they found at your house. I suppose they never heard about your going to Colonel Martin's to kill the Union soldier that was left by his company in their stable. Although you shot at me twice before I left you, I did not want to hear of your being hurt, and am glad you are still living. It would do me good to go back to the dear old home again, and see Miss Mary and Miss Martha and Allen, Esther, Green, and Lee. Give my love to them all, and tell them I hope we will meet in the better world, if not in this. I would have gone back to see you all when I was working in the Nashville Hospital, but one of the neighbors told me that Henry intended to shoot me if he ever got a chance.

I want to know particularly what the good chance is you propose to give me. I am doing tolerably well here. I get twenty-five dollars a month, with victuals and clothing; have a comfortable home for Mandy,—the folks call her Mrs. Anderson,—and the children—Milly, Jane, and Grundy—go to school and are learning well. The teacher says Grundy has a head for a preacher. They go to Sunday school, and Mandy and me attend church regularly. We are kindly treated. Sometimes we overhear others saying, "Them colored people were slaves" down in Tennessee. The children feel hurt when they hear such remarks; but I tell them it was no disgrace in Tennessee to belong to Colonel Anderson. Many darkeys would have been proud, as I used to be, to call you master. Now if you will write and say what wages you will give me, I will be better able to decide whether it would be to my advantage to move back again.

As to my freedom, which you say I can have, there is nothing to be gained on that score, as I got my free papers in 1864 from the Provost-Marshal-General of the Department of Nashville. Mandy says she would be afraid to go back without some proof that you were disposed to treat us justly and kindly; and we have concluded to test your sincerity by asking you to send us our wages for the time we served you. This will make us forget and forgive old scores, and rely on your justice and friendship in the future. I served you faithfully for thirty-two years, and Mandy twenty years. At twenty-five dollars a month for me, and two dollars a week for Mandy, our earnings would amount to eleven thousand six hundred and eighty dollars. Add to this the interest for the time our wages have been kept back, and deduct what you paid for our clothing, and three doctor's visits to me, and pulling a tooth for Mandy, and the balance will show what we are in justice entitled to. Please send the money by Adams's Express, in care of V. Winters, Esq., Dayton, Ohio. If you fail to pay us for faithful labors in the past, we can have little faith in your promises in the future. We trust the good Maker has opened your eyes to the wrongs which you and your fathers have done to me and my fathers, in making us toil for you for generations without recompense. Here I draw my wages every Saturday night; but in Tennessee there was never any pay-day for the negroes any more than for the horses and cows. Surely there will be a day of reckoning for those who defraud the laborer of his hire.

In answering this letter, please state if there would be any safety for my Milly and Jane, who are now grown up, and both good-looking girls. You know how it was with poor Matilda and Catherine. I would rather stay here and starve—and die, if it come to that—than have my girls brought to shame by the violence and wickedness of their young masters. You will also please state if there has been any schools opened for the colored children in your neighborhood. The great desire of my life now is to give my children an education, and have them form virtuous habits.

Say howdy to George Carter, and thank him for taking the pistol from you when you were shooting at me.

From your old servant,

Jourdon Anderson.
 Source: The Freedmen's Book; Image: A group of escaped slaves in Virginia in 1862, courtesy of the Library of Congress. via the amazing Letters of Note.

Do you see what i am saying here?

Monday, January 16, 2012


Sunday, January 8, 2012

busy, busy, busy.

I have too much to do..
.instead of a lengthy and overly wordy rant you can watch this...
it is a beauty and wonder, yet fills no true function.
 like my blog.
i am feeling saucy today.